Them's The Breaks
If you have followed me for any length of time you know that I love a resolution. I love the way a new year stretches out in front of you with so much untapped potential. I was ready. I had my resolutions, my word, my E course, my coach. All I had left to do was the ceremonial nesting that this time of year always seems to kindle in me. I just rearranged the living room, mended some duvets and had finally decided on the arrangement of pictures for our bedroom. As I have done 100 times before, I stood on the bed to hang the final picture when I lost my footing, fell with my arm outstretched from the height of 5’7” + a very tall bed and quite spectacularly shattered my wrist. Ambulances were called, a bumpy ride to the hospital was made, bones were set and then reset I was set home to await a call for surgery.
If you have followed me for any length of time, you will also know that I do not do sitting still well. From the minute I get up to the minute I go to sleep I'm making and doing and talking and working. When I had a normal job it took everything in my power to contain this unbridled energy. I was so bored and usually unable to make it very long at a desk. I built this very full life that I love intentionally. I know from experience I am happiest when I am able to make and create all day long. And 2019 was going to be the year we thrived in it. I was ready.
And I'm still ready. I'm just in the sad bit of limbo where the plans I had for the start of this year aren't really achievable with only one arm. Today is a good day and I can tell you (with the help of dictation software) that what I need to do is make different plans. I can get help. I can read more books. I can spend a lot of time digging deep into our business plans for next year.
On the bad days, the picture isnt as rosey. There is a lot of uncertainty and worry and cancelled plans. A lot of laying around in bed feeling pretty sorry for myself. It's scary, this self employment business. But I have to trust that we will get there.
Of course this means that some things are going to have to change. The natural home and beauty online course will now be starting on the 1st of February, when I have volunteers who can help be my hands for the filming. Kevin will be more hands-on during the upcoming on farm sourdough courses. And there may be a slight delay to sending out kits as I can't drive for the next 6 weeks.
Thank you all so much for your understanding and, other than a few days I will be out due to surgery, we will still be answering emails if you have any questions.
I thought I should maybe to change my word of the year from thrive to survive but, as I said, today is a good day, and I'm sticking with thrive. Because if you have followed me for any length of time you know that I am must stubborn old boot who doesn't like her plans to change.